I am a trash

I've become a trash man again. I know what I am saying now.

I am wasting too much time to play a computer game. Like hours a day, I play LoL and Freestyle Football. I don't do anything productive and valuable to me. Even applying a job isn't the thing I do.

Why do I do that? What is the reason?
It's because I want to avoid streeful things. Writing a resume and self-introduction sheet need quite a bit more energy than normal things. So my brain doesn't wanna do that. This is what makes me play a computer game like forever.

Thing is I feel blue after playing games. I feel like I am a trash. If things that I need to do are done, I will be alright even though I play games for hours. But I am just wasting time.

Look at myself. I am 30 years.................. Oh my god......
I know what I should do..

I made a plan. Everyday I am going to make a list what I need to do. If I have things remained, I am not going to play games. This is a trust appointment with myself.

Dream who I want to be and just don't give up myself.
Jk. Let's go!