I am really depressed

I am depressed now.
here is a story.

There was a likely chance to get a job. The team manager JS in EC21 recommended I and BK to have interview chances there. We both had a interview and our manager said to each of us that he would hand out our resumes to the boss. The thing remained was to wait for calling from EC21.

Some days passed, I heard BK got a call. He asked me whether I recieved calling from EC21 or not. I didn't get a call at all. Eventually, BK passed the last interview with the boss and is waiting the day of being a officer.

This is the reason that makes me depressed. Actually, there might be no reason making me feel blue. But I have bad feeling about me of not having that chance. I feel like I am lonely and I am doing something wrong.

sigh...
I played computer games for many hours to make me feel better. It's really dumb way to release my stress. To solve my problem, I wasted time....

AHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH...........

Give me the energy..
Plz raise me up...

What should I do?