feel uncomfortable

Recently, I've heard many times from my friends "What are you doing, fool~".

If I ask something that I don't know, they usually 얕잡아보다 me. I understand them. We, human, wanna be above others. We wanna show our knowledge, money, all that relatively have advantage. So I guess the fact that I ask could have made them feel that they know more than me.

But all these reasons are from my status having no job. If I have a job, I think they won't act like that. Because, we, human, are the kind of animal that judge others by their appearance, job, money. This is also 적용되다 to close friends.

I'm uncomfortable these days. But I can't solve until I get a job. When it comes the day, I will eventually be comfortable with meeting my guys.
And also, I'm not gonna forget these facts. I'm not gonna 얕잡아보다 other people by their 외적조건.


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look down on someone/something
to think that you are better or more important than someone else, or to think that something is not good enough for you

She looks down on anyone who hasn’t had a university education.
I'm not gonna look down on anyone by their external qualities.

This is also 적용되다 to close friends. > This also applies to close friends.

my goals in 2010

If I have a dream, I think I can have to say it explicitly. If I can't say it clearly, it means my goal is too vague. Vague goals can produce no results. For example, my goal of 2010 is I will have a job. This is vague. What job? Where do you wanna work for? I should set my goal with specific information.

During 2010,

• I will have a job in a stock company. I will be a stock broker.
• I will read many books over 50. They are likely about economy.
• I will get 5 certificates of my career.

an explicit statement/warning/threat
explicit/ɪkˈsplɪsɪt/
said or explained in an extremely clear way, so that you cannot doubt what is meant

Must have : dream

There is a huge difference between people who has dream or not. This may sound like too ideal but it's true. As I view many successful people, I cound't deny that fact. That is the fact that we all have to keep in mind.

I am convincing myself that I should make more specific dreams after I read the article.

Here is the article about a girl who is achieving her goals. It's really amazing.



춤추라, 아무도 바라보고 있지 않은 것처럼.
사랑하라, 한 번도 상처받지 않은 것처럼.
노래하라, 아무도 듣고 있지 않은 것처럼.
일하라, 돈이 필요하지 않은 것처럼.
살라, 오늘이 마지막 날인 것처럼.

-알프레드 디 수자-


Omg. This quote is really famous in Korea. So I wanted to find the original poem. After a few minutes, I found this may not be the quote written by Alfred D Suza.

you gotta read this.


Here is the famous quote of Alfred D Souza(?).

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

The day before yesterday was the vote day

Yeah, I voted for the local politic candidates. I wished those who I supported would win from the election. I think our president is willing to take over our country instead of serving people in Korea. This is wrong. I don't know much about things about happening in Korea now, I don't have much knowledge. But I can distinguish that things are wrong or right.

The vote rate recorded around 51%. One half people went to the places where we were supposed to vote. I can't understand those who didn't go to vote. 이외수 said, this was the chance to exercise sovereign authority and is just once for 4 years. They should pay attention to our country where it is going to.

Why I am saying these things is the person who I support lost from the election. I feel blue. T.T I need to know much about politics, politicians and political parties.


* ¼ (one fourth or one quarter)
* ½ (one half)
* ¾ (three fourths or three quarters)
* ⅓ (one third)
* ⅔ (two thirds)
* ⅕ (one fifth)
* ⅖ (two fifths)
* ⅗ (three fifths)
* ⅘ (four fifths)
* ⅙ (one sixth)
* ⅚ (five sixths)
* ⅛ (one eighth)
* ⅜ (three eighths)
* ⅝ (five eighths)
* ⅞ (seven eighths)


sovereign /ˈsɑvrən/
used for referring to the highest power in a country, or to the person or institution that has the highest power

exercise sovereign authority

exercise
[transitive] formal : to use your power or rights

From now on, I am gonna move with time cycle

I mean I will use my time with scheduled time. It's normally routine life style if I am an officer. Unfortunately, I am currently not an officer. So I need to make me use my time effectively.

As I have seen myself, I do nothing staying at home. To do something valuable, I have to go out to such a place like a library. So, I plan on making the schedule.

From now on, I am gonna arrive at the Boramae library until 9 am. I can go home over 6 pm.

This is what I have to keep not to be broken. This is the promise for myself.

Okay? Otherwise, I will be just a loser.