Oh my godness

Shit!!!!!!
I'm really depressed now. I've got the same score of OPic test. I had to get the higher score than IM because you know, I majored Business administration and psychology. So I am supposed to speak English very well.

I admit my english is not that good to get IH grade. I just wanted to get.

Let's look at myself deeply. I think I am a type of person who don't put my best effort when I do something. Besides I'm naive. I don't know what is important, what I have to do. I really have no idea. And the worst thing of my problem is I don't know what I wanna do, which job I wanna have.

I think I'm walking without the destination. T.T

Okay. I wanna be a stock investor. This is a really interesting job. I can see how much money I earn immediately. So I'm studying finance, reading books related to stock.

I want to be a stock investor.